new web site ladies and gents, im shutting this one down soon, see my profile to connect to the new one, love always.

I had the best time friday nite, it was a dance party thing that was absolutely fabulous that I actually got to stay at until quarter to 1 :), and no, not a rave, the alice in wonderland massive thing drew most people away who were into that. Ian, you rock my socks, thank you for getting me there!!! Anyways, break is otherwise pretty relaxed, pls pls pls call me if you want to get together - (email me if you font have my #, and dont call after 9 unless you want me decapitated). Yep, so what else is new? I think I know where I'm going next year, tho still shaky, OH, and taking some fabulous cooking bootcamp thing as well as artstrek this summer :)
Starting to get my feet under me again, stopped being so silly, and have become more so and am loving it, thank you very much. lol, anyways, all the best, CALL ME, ah and my dad says to say he's awesome (i agree but shhh)

what a movie, i think most people wouldn't enjoy it (with exclusion of theatre lovers), but i really adored it. mmm, i need to watch movies more often. good movies that is. and find time to read the communist manifesto, and sky dive. anyways, i was sitting and chatting with someone and i suddenly realized how horrifically alone i am. and its not just me, its lots of people. i am so busy with this that and the other, and my free time i spend recovering. other people get super involved with other people and essentially loose themselves for their rewardless efforts which are forgotten. did they even make a proper connection? what a dilemma, high school is such crap for that, mainly the people aren't grown up and aware of the truth but thats an enitrely different problem isnt it.
on the bright side i have the most brilliant cast for my drama, which goes up may 30 (as if anyone is interested after my lovely i hate you all thing). the show looks to be stunning. the good thing is bri and i picked a short one and becuz of the mainstage play and drama festival i miss 3 weeks of rehearsal time. but the show is still hopefully over rehearsed, nuts eh? the other drama 30's are gonna be enchanting as well btw, even in my mood i am saying that, so you really should see them.
Another interesting thing is that on my other email account that i use for university stuff i set up a profile as gr 12 was just starting, b4 halloween, and i found it. what a lot of happiness. who am i now? the thing was funny and sweet and had a tonne of spelling errors and an edge of arrogance that asked to be challenged, and i dont think i liked that person a lot, but i certainly dont love the one i am now. interesting how much you can tell from a profile. or names for that matter.
am i completely emo? yes. completely, and what the hell have i actually got to worry about? im probably one of the 5% of girls at my age in the world with as many possibilities, and as much support as i have. im such a spoilt brat. and they proved that after basic needs are satisfied that happiness does not have any relation to money. (obviously an approx. 3% range is allowed), sheesh, but dont get me wrong, i feel guilty about practically everything i do. sigh, i dunno anymore. i think i've got to leave and make a clean break from everything here. problem is i have a few months to waste. and i just cant stop pushing myself. anyways, love always, (no matter what i may say)

Well, I suppose that things could be worse, but when your up and you fall its that much harder you hit, to quote a perfectly putrid cliche. Anyways, at least most stuff is over and done with, stupid interm marks that reflect absolutely nothing as they're composed of about 3 assingments, a pop quiz the class failed miserably and a hurried test that was horrific. <insert mumbled swears here>

I think I need a purge or something. Just completely change and focus and re-set my priorites and life. Ever feel like going to a pagoda on some mountain in the orient and just sitting there and doing nothing except drinking berry flavored tea and gazing out over the natural world. This coming from the biggest lover of the city, i know, but i just need to leave everything for a little, i could do my hw and whatever in the pagoda, thats not the issue i dont think. hm, i don't know, i think i'm going to go and make some cider and do some yoga/meditation type things and do my prompt book and we'll see where that goes. Hope everyone has a great weekend, much luv

Hey guys, the 5 day weekend has begun! anddd i've watched napoleon dynamite tonite with some friends which was so so awesome, so im pretty darn happy. apart from the mountain of homework i must not only scale, categorize and actually do, but haul back to school tuesday. yes for building some upper body strength in 5 days! righteo, what to say.
I suppose I havent talked to a bunch of people in ages, soooo, essentially: 13 hands, prompt book work, hw and actually having a life have sort of taken over my life as i knew it. most of my classes have at least half an hour of unnecessary silliness in them and thats annoying. however briana is stage managing for playing with angels and she is a goddess who i am so thankful to be working with, meg is amazing and funny and sweet, lauren is simply fantastic, sarah is brilliant, original and gorgeous, katie is such a talented, kind and incredible person, and alex is well... alex which says enough lol. those are my fabulous shout outs for today, anywaysss, "life is a sexually transmitted disease" LMAO, ah man, thats too much of a good quote not to put up, sorry. moving back on subject. slowly, veryyyyy slowly. or more quotes? yes. i agree. "hey you, get out of my shower" "My imaginary friend thinks you have serious mental problems…" and "you cannot survive life" are definitely favorites.
Mmmm, well its 10:10, and as sad as it is, i really would love to go to sleep right now, or just curl up in pjs and a blanket and watch some silly and horrible flick with some hot chocolate. I think that sounds like a plan actually. YES FOR PLANS. one for taking over the world, moving to mexico, and/or deciding what im doing with my life might also be helpful, buttt i'll settle for the hot chocolate plan. whoot, code name, and yes, i am leaving, lol. luv you guys!

So this semester hasn't exactly turned out as i thought it would. Granted, it's brilliant, some of the stuff I'm doing is rather hard, but I cannot drop anything for love or need of it, or in some cases both. Butttt, I do think a mental institution isn't the worst idea. Although we watched "One flew over the cukoo's nest" in psychology, which dampens one's enthusiasm for that idea considerably. I guess I'm stuck with "option c" - lol, inside joke- and in this case, that would be to just get through it and wwhine online. Nah, I wouldn't do that to you purposefully. Otherwiseeee, um, avoiding studying infinite series like the black plauge, which actually took out a third of the globe's population at the time. What else can I say? Well, im kinda exhausted, and so far behind in work that i should go or i will start whining.. sooo arrivederci my darlings, much luv, and wish me luck!